16 WEEKS

First things first. I don't know the sex yet. I am considering going to a private US next week. They like you to be at least 16 weeks, which I am today. I am getting more and more anxious to know! Over the past week, I've had some days of nausea relief. Actually, not whole days, but hours at least. It is an improvement. My aversion to food is still here. I can't stand food. I don't like the way it looks, smells, or tastes. Last night, I ate a decent amount of supper. I was feeling pretty well. I woke up in the middle of the night very sick and have been sick since. I'm not sure if it was related to me finally eating, or if the sickness just wanted to assure me that it has not left. I'm definitely showing more and more. I finally broke down and bought some maternity scrubs. My patients have started to recognize that I am pregnant and many of them will lecture me about lifing, working too much, not eating, etc. Reversed roles. Not sure I like it. I am planning to work right up until delivery so I am sure I will be as big as a house walking the floors of the hospital. I found a house to rent. I am very anxious to begin working on the nursery. I feel like I'm running out of time to get things ready and I'm only 4 months along. There are just SO many things that have to be purchased. It's overwhelming. I am currently on the lookout for a baby book. But, I think I'd rather wait until I know the sex so I can make it gender themed. Maybe I should've already purchased a baby book. I'm not sure. I've never had the need to open one. Until next time...

15 WEEKS

If you think I look sick in the picture above, it's because I WAS! Ugh! But, I'm now 15 weeks and 3 days and I am not nauseated at this particular moment in time. Today is the first day I've woken up without nausea since January. This is huge. I'm not going to say anything else. I might jinx it.

I went for my appointment with the specialist. That was a strange experience. But, we got some really good US pictures.





One of the pictures appears to show some thumb sucking!

The tech did not try very hard to figure out the sex, but said she had no hints from the pictures. My next appointment is at the end of May so I am considering paying for a private US next week. I don't think I can wait any longer!

The physician told me, "Your eggs are SO old. They are so old that they were there in your Mama's womb." To which I replied, "Your Mama is SO ugly. She's so ugly that..." Ok, I didn't say that. But, he did! His point was that my age puts me at a higher risk of delivering a baby with a birth defect. They tested for Down Syndrome by taking measurements of the baby and looking for a nasal bone. Everything was normal. Then they stuck my finger and took about 8 circles of blood which was sent to a lab to test for cystic fibrosis and who knows what else. They called me Friday to tell me everything came back negative.

I guess this little cardiac issue of mine will be monitored closely, and my kidneys as well since the two go hand in hand. In a month, they will do an anatomy scan of the baby and in two months they will study the cardiac system of the baby.

I had an appointment with my regular ob/gyn Thursday. I asked if I REALLY needed to see both doctor's. They said I do. I strongly disagree and feel that this is most likely a money making scheme. But, I'll be a good patient and play along. We finally got to hear the heartbeat at both appointments.

Hopefully, next time I write, I will be able to let you know if I'm buying bows and ruffles or baseball caps and blue!

14 WEEKS

Ok, I am huge. I mean, really. I weighed myself today and I am still in the negative. However, I look as if I am 7 months pregnant. Oh well.

I went back to work the first week in April and it has been a struggle. I remain as sick as ever. Over the last couple of days though, I've noticed that I'm able to eat more food than just one bite. I am hoping that my appetite is returning. I am still taking Zofran, but I'm not sure why. I threw up after taking it this morning. It just doesn't work. Nothing does. It is what it is.

What is the deal with maternity clothes? I don't understand. Someone, please help me here. Panties. Bras. Is the government hiding them in some secret locale? I can't find them. I tried buying humongous granny panties. The whole butt sags! I need real maternity panties!

I looked at a few bathing suits today. They look like moo-moo's. I don't understand why maternity clothes are so ugly. I really don't. Anyone who can give me some advice on where to find some better maternity clothes, fill me in!

Anytime I buy something for myself, I look to see if the baby "needs" something. I found this little lamb on sale for $4 today--Easter clearance. Cute, huh? I figure it will go well in the crib or somewhere in the nursery.



I want to buy little baby clothes, but I am holding out for the sex of the baby. We have bought a few outfits though. Oh, my appointment on 4/9 got changed to 4/17. I couldn't get out of work. I am hoping that they will be able to tell me the sex, but when I asked on the phone they said they would not be able to tell that day. I will be almost 15 weeks. I hope they will at least try.

The baby will be a couple of weeks old this Halloween, so he/she "needs" a costume! Aren't these cute?





Of course, I will wait and see what the sex is before I buy anything.

Because I have been so sick, I have been unable to focus on reality. I can't believe that I am almost 4 months pregnant already. But, then again, I feel like I have been sick for a lifetime. This Christmas I will have a 2 month old. Crazy!

I made some decisions today. I will be informing the doctor at my next visit. I will have a scheduled c-section and the baby and I will be going home a few hours after they close me up. Ha! I really dread being a patient. I seriously don't see the need to stay in the hospital. I can check my own blood pressure, and take care of my own incision. If I need fluids, I can run a manual drip at home!

Random thought. Willis is going to learn to cry like the baby. I wonder if I will be able to tell them apart. Willis is 8 and will live to be in his 70's so the baby will truly always have him in his/her life. Weird.

I am convinced that I am having a giant. Cliff was 8lb 1 oz. I weighed 7lb 4 oz. They will be measuring the baby on the 17th and I fully expect them to say...you are having the biggest baby ever on record. It will not surprise me. THAT is why I have been so sick!

I've gone from falling asleep before my head hits the pillow to not being able to sleep at all. Like, at all. I know I am supposed to have training for not sleeping due to newborn demands. However, isn't it a bit early???

We are thinking about crib shopping soon. I'd like to get some of the more expensive items out of the way. We will have to move out of the apartment before our lease runs out. It runs out the month I am due. I want to be established somewhere and have the nursery set up. I will be stressed to the max if we try to wait until October. I am already wanting to set up the basics of the nursery and start putting clothes in the baby's closet.

Until next time...