14 WEEKS

Ok, I am huge. I mean, really. I weighed myself today and I am still in the negative. However, I look as if I am 7 months pregnant. Oh well.

I went back to work the first week in April and it has been a struggle. I remain as sick as ever. Over the last couple of days though, I've noticed that I'm able to eat more food than just one bite. I am hoping that my appetite is returning. I am still taking Zofran, but I'm not sure why. I threw up after taking it this morning. It just doesn't work. Nothing does. It is what it is.

What is the deal with maternity clothes? I don't understand. Someone, please help me here. Panties. Bras. Is the government hiding them in some secret locale? I can't find them. I tried buying humongous granny panties. The whole butt sags! I need real maternity panties!

I looked at a few bathing suits today. They look like moo-moo's. I don't understand why maternity clothes are so ugly. I really don't. Anyone who can give me some advice on where to find some better maternity clothes, fill me in!

Anytime I buy something for myself, I look to see if the baby "needs" something. I found this little lamb on sale for $4 today--Easter clearance. Cute, huh? I figure it will go well in the crib or somewhere in the nursery.



I want to buy little baby clothes, but I am holding out for the sex of the baby. We have bought a few outfits though. Oh, my appointment on 4/9 got changed to 4/17. I couldn't get out of work. I am hoping that they will be able to tell me the sex, but when I asked on the phone they said they would not be able to tell that day. I will be almost 15 weeks. I hope they will at least try.

The baby will be a couple of weeks old this Halloween, so he/she "needs" a costume! Aren't these cute?





Of course, I will wait and see what the sex is before I buy anything.

Because I have been so sick, I have been unable to focus on reality. I can't believe that I am almost 4 months pregnant already. But, then again, I feel like I have been sick for a lifetime. This Christmas I will have a 2 month old. Crazy!

I made some decisions today. I will be informing the doctor at my next visit. I will have a scheduled c-section and the baby and I will be going home a few hours after they close me up. Ha! I really dread being a patient. I seriously don't see the need to stay in the hospital. I can check my own blood pressure, and take care of my own incision. If I need fluids, I can run a manual drip at home!

Random thought. Willis is going to learn to cry like the baby. I wonder if I will be able to tell them apart. Willis is 8 and will live to be in his 70's so the baby will truly always have him in his/her life. Weird.

I am convinced that I am having a giant. Cliff was 8lb 1 oz. I weighed 7lb 4 oz. They will be measuring the baby on the 17th and I fully expect them to say...you are having the biggest baby ever on record. It will not surprise me. THAT is why I have been so sick!

I've gone from falling asleep before my head hits the pillow to not being able to sleep at all. Like, at all. I know I am supposed to have training for not sleeping due to newborn demands. However, isn't it a bit early???

We are thinking about crib shopping soon. I'd like to get some of the more expensive items out of the way. We will have to move out of the apartment before our lease runs out. It runs out the month I am due. I want to be established somewhere and have the nursery set up. I will be stressed to the max if we try to wait until October. I am already wanting to set up the basics of the nursery and start putting clothes in the baby's closet.

Until next time...